Thank You

After waited for the whole night for someone I called a friend, I ended up talking to Him & him.
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Been There, Done That, Why Still Want More?

I am going to undergo treatment in 6 hours and here I am wandering for don’t know why. Calmness? Solace? Tranquility? Well…it will be another treatment among hundreds or maybe thousands. Just that I’m feeling uneasy thinking of the effects. Been there, done that, still want more? On top of it, this is the best option for now.

I have been working like a dog to make sure I can spare it.  Money is everywhere & I just need to work harder. Besides, I wanna make sure I will not bother anybody. They have enough in their plate and what I wanna do is to lessen their burden even it is just a small contribution. Almost everybody seems to ignore me but I have done my best to understand what is happening in their life. Learnt to accept whatever people threw at me. I distract myself from those heedless by getting more & more into work.

With Allah will I’m going to get over this. I’m going back to work once I’m able to stand on my feet. I can’t wait to indulge in work so I can distract myself again.  I can’t afford to go for a holiday after the treatment as recommended. Not that I can’t pay but it’s far beyond my reach to get a company what else a good company who understand my needs. The last time I did, I was a burden to them & I have misused the program.

During the hard times, Allah shows me the reason not to be selfish. Back-off & stop asking. No matter how much I need help, I must understand that I will not be the priority because I’m nobody. Blood is thicker than water. No matter how small a favour I ask, it can be much too big for other people. Time is gold. No matter how much effort I have spent for them, it can be forgotten in a blink of an eye. When you do something right, no one remembers. When you do something wrong, no one forgets. But, keep giving anyway.