Pabila Hati Dah Jemu

Hujan belum berhenti. Sejak tadi. Hujan di hati kian lebat.
Lembar-lembar kertas dengan catatan bertarikh 11/11/2007 aku baca satu persatu. Hampir semuanya tercatat ungkapan “I Love You”. Itulah isi hati mereka pada ketika itu. Ya…pada ketika itu. Hari ini semuanya mungkin sudah berubah. Mungkin ada hati dah jemu. Mungkin ada sayang yang dah beku. Entah…semuanya hanya MUNGKIN. Aku tidak mampu menebak hati manusia lain. Yang terzahir hanyalah tingkah laku dan tutur kata yang kadang kala mencerminkan isi hati.
Hati ini menangis mengenangkan sukarnya menjadi manusia yang tidak ‘diiktiraf’. Sukarnya menjadi manusia yang bukan siapa-siapa. Sukarnya menjadi manusia yang bijak dan matang. Sukarnya menjadi manusia yang kuat dan tabah. Sukarnya meluah rasa hati kerana setiap kata-kata dijustifikasi. Tapi tolonglah fahami aku…
Aku juga manusia seperti mereka. Aku juga punya derita yang aku simpan seperti mereka. Aku juga mahu dibelai dengan kata-kata sayang seperti mereka. Aku juga mahu rajukku dipujuk seperti mereka.
Jangan kerana aku ini dianggap kuat dan tabah, aku tak perlukan itu semua. Jangan kerana aku ini dipandang bijak dan matang, aku harus menelan segala caci dan nista. Jangan kerana aku ini bukan siapa-siapa, aku diperlakukan seperti aku tak pernah memberi apa-apa.
Sekali lagi tolonglah fahami aku…setiap baris kata yang kulontarkan itu bukannya kerana aku tak mensyukuri nikmat Tuhan. Setiap baris kata yang kuluahkan itu bukannya kerana aku mengharapkan balasan atas segala yang pernah aku beri. Setiap baris kata yang tercatat itu hanya untuk menyedarkan kau dan sesiapa jua bahawa aku ini manusia biasa.
Seandainya benar ada hati dah jemu, renungkanlah… Kasih sayang tidak hanya benar pada ketika itu tapi akan kekal benar buat selamanya.

Selamat Hari Lahir Faiq...Semoga sentiasa dilindungi Allah dan membesar sebagai anak yang soleh.

Biarkan Semalam Menjadi Sejarah

Bagiku yang sudah biarlah, pergiku tunduk mengalah. Biarkan semalam menjadi sejarah. Yang manis kukenang berpanjangan, pahit tak perlu usah disimpan. Bukan kumenaruh dendam hiba, atas segala duka dan lara. Malah kupercaya semua ini, mungkin ada rahmat yang tersendiri.

Spirit Of Love

You will find as you look back on your life that the moments that stand out above everything else are the moments when you have done things in a spirit of love.

Heartless

Pernah tak kau rasa...seolah-olah hati ini mahu dirobek, dicampak jauh-jauh? Tiada lagi hati, tiada perasaan. Jadi kau tak akan rasa sakit.
Kau tak rasa gembira
Kau tak rasa takut
Kau tak tahu marah
Kau tak akan keliru
Kau tak membenci
Kau tak akan cemburu
Kau tak kecewa
Kau tak akan sedih
Kau tak terseksa
Kau tak rasa sendiri
Kau tak mengharap
Kau tak menyayangi...

I am so full of emotions that I think I'm just waiting to explode. Itu yang aku rasakan sekarang. Kalau boleh untuk buang hatiku...then, call me heartless! Itu lebih baik daripada jadi bom jangka.

I think I need to get out of here...

~LUVE~

Journey

A Message From Behind The Door

If one day you feel like crying
Call me
I don't promise
That I will make you laugh
But I can cry with you

If one day you want to run away
Don't be afraid to call me
I don't promise to ask you to stop
But I can run with you

If one day you don't want to listen to anyone
Call me
I promise to be quiet

But if one day you call me
And there is no answer
Come fast to see me
Maybe I need you

If I ever ignored you
I'm sorry
If I ever made you feel bad or put you down
I'm sorry
If I ever thought I was bigger or better than you
I'm sorry

I love you
Don't ever forget that
Through bad times and good
I'll be there with you
I'm sorry for everything wrong I've ever done

I'm writing this because what if tomorrow never comes?
What if I never get to say goodbye or give you a big hug?
What if I never get to say I'm sorry or I love you?
Because what if tomorrow never comes?

~Costa Rica @ Le Paris~

When The Heart Is Closed, Remain Open To Love

There are times when we long to be able to help someone whom we love very much, but we can do nothing. Circumstances will not allow us to approach them, or the person is closed off to any gesture of solidarity and support. Then all we are left is love. At such times, when we can do nothing else, we can still love – without expecting any reward or change or gratitude. If we do this, the energy of love will begin to transform the universe about us. Wherever this energy appears, it always achieves its ends. ‘Time does not transform man. Will-power does not transform man. Love transform,’ says Henry Drummond.
Love transforms and love cures; but, sometimes, love builds deadly traps and can end up destroying a person who had resolved to give him or herself completely. What is this complex feeling which, deep down, is only reason we continue to live, struggle and improve?
I can’t define it, because I, along with every other human being, can only feel it. But I have learned that this feeling is present in the small things, and manifest itself in the most insignificant of our action. It is necessary, therefore, to keep love always in mind, regardless of whatever or not we take action. And when nothing is possible, when all that remains is loneliness, then remember this story.

A rose dreamed day and night about bees, but no bee ever landed on her petals. The flower, however, continued to dream. During the long nights, she imagined a heaven full of bees, which flew down to bestow fond kisses on her. By doing this, she was able to last until the next day, when she opened again to the light of the sun.
One night, the moon, who knew of the rose’s loneliness, asked:
‘Aren’t you tired of waiting?’
‘Possibly, but I have to keep trying.’
‘Why?’
‘Because if I don’t remain open, I will simply fade away.’

At times, when loneliness seems to crush all beauty, the only way to resist is to remain open.

Oh, Allah, I turn to You because You know everything, even what is hidden.
If what I am doing is good for me and for my religion, for my life now and hereafter, then let the task be easy and blessed.
If what I am doing is bad for me and for my religion, for my life now and hereafter, remove me from that task.
(Prophet Muhammad S.A.W.)

~ Source: LTFR ~