Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Emotions


It occurs to me how happiness and sadness are so closely knitted together. Such a thin line, a thread-like divide that in the midst of emotions, it trembles, blurring the territory of exact opposites. The movement is minute, like the thin thread of a spider's web that quivers under a raindrop.
I remember how my moment of happiness is racked by emotion and therefore steps ever so slightly over the mark, and into sadness. Tears of sadness gush down my cheeks as my stomach continues to shake and ache with happiness.
I think of many people. How quickly a moment of love was snapped away to a moment of hate. One comment to steal it all away. Of how love and war stand upon the very same foundations. How, in my darkest moments, my most fearful times, when faced, became my bravest. When feeling at your weakest, you end up showing more strength. When at your lowest are suddenly lifted above higher than you've ever been.
They all border one another, those opposites, and how quickly we can be altered. Despair can be altered by one simple smile offered by a stranger. Confidence can become fear by the arrival of one uneasy presence. Such a comfort with someone can shift to awkwardness.
Everything is on the verge, always brimming the surface, a slight shake, a tremble sends things toppling. How similar emotions are. A veil hangs between the two opposites, a mere slip of a thing that is transparent to warn us or comfort us. You hate now but look through this veil and see the possibility of love. You're sad now but look through to the other side and see happiness. Absolute composure to a complete mess - it happens so quickly, all in the blink of an eye.
Some people say I'm full of emotions. Well, they can see my emotions because they are full of emotions too. It just that they do not express the emotions, maybe. “But some emotions don't make a lot of noise. It's hard to hear pride. Caring is real faint - like a heartbeat. And pure love - why, some days it's so quiet, you don't even know it's there.”

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